48.2 God is intimate because he is infinite, as air is
intimate with my lungs. If he were vast as the cosmos without being
infinite, he would be unapproachable.
Father, your constant presence fills my life with praise and
gratitude, even in those moments when you seem remote. I sit, fingers
poised over the keyboard, unable to verbalize what I feel toward you,
but I don’t have to feel
anything for my mind to know,
and my spirit to believe
you are here. Thanks for faith beyond sensing with my human
faculties, and understanding beyond the reasoning ability of my human
mind.
48.3 The hard part about relating to God in prayer is shaking the
human habit of dishonesty. Any pretense completely closes off our
communication with the eternal One, so I must examine every thought,
every word, to ensure its truth.
Though I want to approach God prepared, that does not consist of
rehearsing my thoughts as a lawyer rehearses his case. Preparation
for prayer is simply reminding myself who God is, and who I am in
relation to him. Then I verbalize as the thoughts appear in my mind;
no thoughts, no words. Such wordless prayer is not “thoughtless”
prayer.
I can illustrate wordless prayer by comparing it to a popcorn popper.
Switch the power on and the blower begins kicking the corn around in
the popping chamber even before the heating element gets hot. The
corn may jump toward the outlet, but the air-flow won’t carry it
out of the mouth until it gets hot enough to explode into a fluffy,
white morsel of popped corn.
“Thoughtless”
prayer, rather than wordless, is memorized or habitual, formal
prayer. But that’s not necessarily a bad
thing either, unless it becomes meaningless repetition as in a
mantra. Calling repeatedly on God can be a heartfelt plea.
I used to struggle with wrong or “improper” thoughts while
praying, but now realize they are not a problem. Instead of trying to
filter it out of the prayer, I simply give the wrong thought to God,
repent of it if needed and thank him for his forgiveness. Satan must
get really mad when I steal his thunder like that.
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